What are best friend for when you don't even treat them as one?
F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.T , the only word i could describe.
Hi, just having the urge to blog about how i feel who else could i really rely on and telling them everything, and doesn't judge who am i? I been wasting so much tears on this friendship and relationship and you been lying over and over again to me, don't you feel guilty? Tell me how to reacted to all those stuffs you did behind my back. Suck to me right , i know i know!
Fucking a lot of times crying for all those bullshits you making me facing with it, please don't make yourself so poor thing, when you are the one who create all those problems, wanna get out of our cliques making this cliques falling apart and torn, and making me the bad ones, you did it, well done. What else i could expect from someone trying so hard to be fake?
Yes i guess i am that biggest fool after all, putting all those trust in you, being so silly of me thinking best friend of us will never betray each other? Ya totally bullshits, i think your friendship equal to friendshit, totally. Keep trying to make things better but all those things you didn't told me , one time all facing it, do you understand how i feel?
Just tired of facing all those shits i having right now and if this is what you really want me to face, thank i understand it now and so is our friendship, tell me what is friendship to you? I guess i could say it's nothing, while to me, treating the best i could and making out an fool of myself in the end. I have changed? Yes i change to be more smart instead of being that fool. You took all my kindness for granted i swear, what is h2h talk to you? Letting you spreading everything i told you , screenshot , gossip. I don't need friend like you, i wonder what going on your mind all this while when we met. Lies over lies what else could you do? I really can't believe those stuffs you did, don't you regret for all those you did?
Trying to get Jasper and I back when you keep meeting him for drinks? dinner? clubbing? BEST FRIEND YOU ARE THE BEST FRIEND I EVER COULD ASK FOR. What else could i ask for when this friendship already ruined it, you make me regret so much. and i don't even owe you anything from now onward, i wish you could go and think all those things. Think twice, what if it's me go around telling your secrets , will you feel the same state as me? I think you'll be so much better without me as your friend, thanks for all those while acting my best friend when all those fake hopes and kindness you given me.