Dear you,
I just hope the best out of the best for you, you don't seem to be okay. It's okay not to be okay.
Hopefully one day we can be friends once again, talking rubbish and whatever we used to have.
Till then, please take care of yourself. I just can't be there for you now, not at this stage.
I don't know how to handle whatever I am feeling, I just don't want to be impulsive again
Take care and stop , stop being not yourself.