i guess i am never meant to be exist

Who here for you when you are all alone and there's so much things to do? No one, basically we can't rely on anyone, why am i always so foolish thinking "friend" exist in my life? I just need a fucking break from my life, who here to catch my tears, wipe away all those tears on my face? It suck to be me, i wish i didn't exist.  I miss my old times, nothing to care , nothing to even bother, nobody to judge who the fuck you are, and now? Every single little moves, everybody judge, society suck like fuck. I wish i am so fucking dead x.